I am a dreamer at heart. I dream a lot, imagine myriad nice things happening to me which are crazy in real life. This post is not about them.
What I do is day dreaming, eyes open or close but I am awake.
From my college time, I have had a recurring dream. The basic plotline remains same. I am alone or with someone, I have luggage and I am at railway station. I have to catch a train at a scheduled place and time. Due to some or the other reason, I am not able to and I have a fear that I will miss it. I can not recall if I actually miss it, cos I wake up before the end. This basic plot recurs where sometime I am already in a train, which is all secluded, I am with someone and need to get down at a certain point and from there catch a train. My current train is running late, I am with lot of luggage and dont know what to do. A few times, I have got down at wrong station and my home is very far and I dont know how to reach the other station. I dont have phone or money (or may be I have lost the sense to use them). Sometimes I am at the platform waiting for the train but somehow I dont have the ticket. Train is at a far away platform and it is impossible for me to buy the ticket and then board the train. Sometimes I am resting at the platform with a lot of luggage and overslept. when I get up, I realise that I have lot of luggage and need to go to a platform. Train is arriving in 2 minutes and there is no way, I can make it. Other dreams are also similar themes, with location and charater change, base story same.
Every single time, when I wake up from this dream, I feel scared and dont know what to do. I heave a sigh of relief thinking that it was just a dream.
Now when I am writing this, I realise that none of these dreams, I miss the train or incur any loss. Its the thought of loss/failure. This is a classic case of fear of failure before the actual failure. It is known that our dreams reflect our lives. If the same situation happened in real life, I could have handled it differently. May be cancel the ticket and get a new one. or buy a new ticket, call someone from the local phone and ask for help. There could be a lot of solutions that can be worked on, but in my dreams none comes to my mind.
What I do is day dreaming, eyes open or close but I am awake.
From my college time, I have had a recurring dream. The basic plotline remains same. I am alone or with someone, I have luggage and I am at railway station. I have to catch a train at a scheduled place and time. Due to some or the other reason, I am not able to and I have a fear that I will miss it. I can not recall if I actually miss it, cos I wake up before the end. This basic plot recurs where sometime I am already in a train, which is all secluded, I am with someone and need to get down at a certain point and from there catch a train. My current train is running late, I am with lot of luggage and dont know what to do. A few times, I have got down at wrong station and my home is very far and I dont know how to reach the other station. I dont have phone or money (or may be I have lost the sense to use them). Sometimes I am at the platform waiting for the train but somehow I dont have the ticket. Train is at a far away platform and it is impossible for me to buy the ticket and then board the train. Sometimes I am resting at the platform with a lot of luggage and overslept. when I get up, I realise that I have lot of luggage and need to go to a platform. Train is arriving in 2 minutes and there is no way, I can make it. Other dreams are also similar themes, with location and charater change, base story same.
Every single time, when I wake up from this dream, I feel scared and dont know what to do. I heave a sigh of relief thinking that it was just a dream.
Now when I am writing this, I realise that none of these dreams, I miss the train or incur any loss. Its the thought of loss/failure. This is a classic case of fear of failure before the actual failure. It is known that our dreams reflect our lives. If the same situation happened in real life, I could have handled it differently. May be cancel the ticket and get a new one. or buy a new ticket, call someone from the local phone and ask for help. There could be a lot of solutions that can be worked on, but in my dreams none comes to my mind.
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